Confusion

can't see how to get through this mess
thoughts
like arrows
flying through my head
too fast to see them
yet they make me feel dizzy
this time I won't run
this time I won't move
I know I can't get there
trying to control it
can't reach the stars
pretending you don't exist
doesn't help
still my hand reaches out to you in vain
how could you possibly understand
what can't be explained
why should I fight for something that doesn't make sense
leave me broken
but set me free