Being home.... and sacrifice

Spending time away from home, makes me love my country even more. I always knew that Switzerland is beautiful but now I'm even more sure of it, because now I can compare. More and more I realise how blessed I am to be a Swiss.
It feels good to be home. I really missed the seasons when on Hawaii. So I enjoyed spring and I loove summer. Even though I do work a lot these days, I still have time to hang out with my friends and family. Life in Switzerland is just great.
Still I'm gonna leave soon again. I feel called to join the ships for 2 years. I don't even want to think how long 2 years are. It makes me so sad to leave home again but I know this is what I'm supposed to do.
Many people think, that I just can't handle being back again and that's why I leave. Which is so not true. If I would want to leave, I surely would not join the ships. The ships involve a lot of sacrifices. The only person that can truely understand what it means for me to join the ships and how freaking hard it is, is my Mum. And then people say, "why do you go if you don't really want to". Ahhhh, how I hate the ignorance of people. I believe if God calls us to do something we should do it. And I believe that he doesn't always call us to do stuff that we're stocked about. Why should life always be easy and how we want it to be? Do I know what's best for my life? Well, I think I do but I really don't.
To sacrifice shapes my character. I have to learn to let go because as a matter of fact, I own nothing and I definitely own nobody. It is hard, it hurts and I don't want to do it but in the end it makes me free. And free I want to be.