torsdag, februari 24, 2005

Confusion

can't see how to get through this mess
thoughts
like arrows
flying through my head
too fast to see them
yet they make me feel dizzy
this time I won't run
this time I won't move
I know I can't get there
trying to control it
can't reach the stars
pretending you don't exist
doesn't help
still my hand reaches out to you in vain
how could you possibly understand
what can't be explained
why should I fight for something that doesn't make sense
leave me broken
but set me free

tisdag, februari 22, 2005

here I am

Well, I wasn't intending to start a Blogg thing, but I had to open my own account in order to write a message to Jon. So I did that, and of course when I wanted to enter my blogg again I couldn't remember my password :-) Oh, It's snow/raining again. That's really nasty. Yesterday when I went home from work by bike it was snow/raining and I had to close one of my eyes and wink with the other one all the time in order to actually see something.

Today is my day off, which is good. It's flowing freely out of my nose and so I'm glad not having to go to work. Also for the next few weeks I will work much more. My collegue is pregnant with twins and yesterday she came to the hotel to inform us, that she can't come to work for at lest two weeks, because one of the twins is growing too slow (I told here that's probably because the other twin eats more - now I consider becoming a doctor) so now she has to stay and home and rest. Hm, I think, I should become pregnant as well, but then I would need a man and get married and all that takes so much time and energy, which I now need for work. Ah, yes, speaking of man, some weeks ago my best friend Michael told me, that most man are scared of dating me. My goodness I am really shocked. This is not good. But then again, God is in control and I don't (often) have time to worry.

Hm, I'm waiting for a friend but somehow she must have gotten lost. Oh, that sentence might be wrong, anyway you know what I mean. Better switch on my mobile phone.

Don't forget God rules!

lördag, februari 19, 2005

lovely snow

I must say, I really do like snow. I think, as we need to have this stupid winter time, it really helps to endure it, if you can look at some white stuff. It just makes the country side so nice and beautiful. But I still didn't make it to the mountains this year, that's where there is most of the snow and it's just such an amazing site. Well, maybe in March. Who knows. Anyway, got to go.........