You held me back

Hold me back from where I want to go
Hold me back from what I want to do
You put me in chains of fear, doubt and depression
You try to kill the flame and drown my passion
You stole my dreams and dragged them through the dirt
You lied, when you whispered that I can't be the princess I wanted to be
That I have to act like a man to survive in this world
You destroyed the innoncence of my dreams
You murdered the prince that was supposed to come for me
You told me that I'm not worth being fought for, that no one will ever come for me
You keep on telling me to pull back, to give up and let go of it all
You try to deceive me by telling me that no one loves me
I learned to hide my tears because you told me that crying is weakness and weakness should not be shown
You said that I should stop acting like a girl, because that's weakness, too
You made me give up what I've been created to be and made me put on a mask
Made me pretend that I was strong, because you knew it would break me
You made me live a lie
You made me believe a lie
You twisted the truth
But in a vision God showed me that I was a princess in his eyes, wearing a beautiful white dress
He told me it's ok to act like a girl, because the little girl is still within me.

The world we're living in

Let's start with England. It was awesome to go back. Even though I haven't been on the island for more than a year, I so didn't feel it. I got out of the coach in Birmingham and felt right at home. It was great to see the Oakham tribe again :-) I love you people, that's for everything, it was wicked ;-) Oh, and I was happy seeing James getting married. Plus I loved the Sunday meeting in the evening. We even sung "these are the days of Elija", my baptism song! Amen.

Coming back to Switzerland was, hm, first of all hot. I came back at night. The next morning I left the house at 6am, just to find out that my bike has been stolen. Right infront of the house. I can't believe it. What a freak. So, the whole thing agin. Police office, ordering a new bike, but this time I was insured, so I will get the money back.

At work I'm still very busy getting everything ready. We had our OM prayer day Thursday (that's an international thing). A couple (he is from Israel and she from Switzerland) came to visit us, to tell us about Israel. One of their sons is in the military right now (like in Switzerland every guy is supposed to go there, BUT they go to a real war). Two guys of their sons infantry were kidnapped and yesterday their son had to move into the Lebanon. For me living in my little naiv, neutral country (little paradise) that just got me. I can't imagine how living in a war zone must be like, seeing my brothers go to war. But it's reality.

That's it for now. I still haven't unpacked since I came back from Engalnd. The weather is just to nice. Like yesterday, I came back from work at 7 pm. I went straight to a park. Oh, speaking of it. It's right next to the football stadion (soccer for my dear Amercian friends) and there was a game. Which reminds me that our goal keeper "Zubi" (FCBasel and of the national team)is going to guard the goal of the West Brom Albions. Eh, yes, so I went to the park with my friend and her dog. Then I wanted to go home, but had a call of another friend and so I went to hang in the city for another two hours. NOW, I will go and unpack!