Time of change

Well, there would be a lot to tell, but I try to keep it short. Last Frieday I went to visit a friend who just moved flat. I went there with another friend and her dog. We 3 girls used to hang out together for ages, it was great to spend time with them. On the way home I saw the tower on the Chrischona hill and I mentioned to my friend how much I like it up there. We decided to drive there and walk - that was at about 10:30 pm. You should have been there. It's like when you're on the Oakham hill, but when you look down there is also a lot of forests and hills, also you can see lots of stars. Beautiful. We just sat there for a while, in awe of what we saw. The next morning I had to work and right after work I went to my Mum's birhtday party - which was cool, because her friends are cool. I had a discussion with my Dad's cousin, who is a pastor. He said that am a woman who loves being independent and that people - especially man - can feel that and that's why they don't want to date me. Interesting - I never heard that theory before. The party went on and on and at 23:30 my brother drove me home. Sunday morning I had the pleasure of working again. In the evening I went to church. An amazing cermon. I realised that I have to refocus on God and that I have to check my motives in what I'm doing. At the moment I doubt that I'm doing the right thing at church, I never had that doubt in England, so I'm confused, but as I'll fly to Glasgow this Sunday, I won't be able to talk to the leaders of the church. But there is a lot to think about.

Sometimes

Sometimes I run away from myself
Sometimes I run away from you
I can't handle not being with you
When you're there I feel save
It's just nice being with you
I want to know everything about you
But it's up to you to take the first step
There are so many girls around you
I don't want to be just one more
I want to be either the one
or nothing at all
No more compromises
This is serious
This is about the future
It's nothing I want to rush in
But I'm scared that if I don't make a move
I might miss the chance of my life
Trust is so hard when you're burning inside
And then people say that I'm cool
Burning ice, that's all I am
I want to be with you
I want you to know it without having to tell you

fun things

Yes, now I'm 25!!!! I had a great birthday. The day I spent in a theme park in Germany. My friend invited me, it was wicked. When we came back to Basel, I went streight to the youth meeting of my church. On stage they annouced my birthday, so people came and asked me how old I turned. I let them guess. Someone said 20, most people thought I turn 22 :-) At least I still look young.
Yesterday I went dancing, because I didn't go for ages. One of my friends loves dancing as much as I do, while the others had breaks we just danced for about 3 hours without really stopping. A guy came up to us and asked what kind of drugs we take.
Some news for you people at Oakham. I am coming to visit you guys. First I will go and see Ashley but then I'll come and hang with you, Ashley might come for some days as well. I'm not sure how everything is going to work out, but I will come on the 7th, be warned. I hope you will have some time to spend with me...
May the joy and peace of God be in your heart.